I'm completely heartbroken. Penny, my beautiful, stubborn, outgoing, gentle, dominant, funny big girl Basset hound, matriarch and leader of the pack, has been put to sleep in quiet dignity today.
She was only nine, and the enormous tumour unearthed by an ultrasound the other day was found to be so complicatedly knotted to her stomach and intestines that it was impossible for the vet to do anything about it. The presence of blood clots meant that one act of bursting and she'd bleed internally to death, in agony, so we did the difficult but right thing. It didn't matter in the end if the tumour was benign or malignant, and indeed we didn't ask.
I've just removed her empty bed from the kennel where the other three Bassets are still waiting for the return of their comrade. They have seen Penny's lifeless, peaceful body in our hope that they will understand, somehow, that she has gone and won't be coming back, but I suspect it will be too much for them to comprehend. They will howl and bark for a while at all hours as they begin to miss her, but we'll never know if they grieve or not. But I am grieving. I burst into tears as I removed her bed. I slumped on to the kennel floor, head buried into Bentley's fur, with the big lad notably not wagging his tail as I hung on to him. This is as close, I think, as any of them will come to understanding what's happened. Dogs aren't daft, but some are dafter than others.
We got Penny from a private owner in 2001 when she was a year old. She'd been bought by them, as I've mentioned before, as they couldn't have children, then suddenly managed to conceive their wanted sproglet and Penny - or Pagan, as she was then (her kennel name was Malrich Devil In Disguise; she came from a litter named after Elvis Presley songs) - was suddenly unwanted, confined to a cage in the kitchen. Keeping any dog in a cage is obscene. There is no evidence she was mistreated but certainly she was neglected and it's a blessing that her owners placed an ad that appeared in our local paper on the day we chose to find a Basset. Pagan didn't suit her so we chose a more appropriately girly name
She settled in immediately, initially having a free run in the house as there was only her and Twizz, our aged cat who passed away last summer. They made a point of ignoring each other, though Penny knew she was last into the house and therefore that Twizz had the final word in the event of conflict. With her came her breeding papers and so we began our sojourn into Bassetland.
Penny was a stroppy madam, a drama queen and a right snob too. We wouldn't have had her any other way. She refused to take a crap in public, preferring instead to do it quietly in the darkest corner of the enclosed dog run that she and the others used for exercise and ablution. How fantastic is that, even allowing for the slightly tasteless subject matter? She was aware that being caught short was private and therefore chose to demand her privacy. Bentley, on the other hand, once shat on my parents' hearth rug, so she wasn't entirely influential in her ways.
Yet top dog she was, without question, even when boisterous Boris arrived. He is the youngest of the pack, the last to arrive, and immediately tried a canine coup which partially worked until Penny bared her teeth at this upstart pup and he cowered into a metaphorical corner. He subsequently started a thousand fights with Bentley and Ruby and not one with Penny. She ruled.
Her best skill was her way of mediating when other dogs came on the scene. Boris isn't a fan of rogue dogs on his territory and wants to bark and confront them. If that dog is loose, then it may get a shock if it is allowed to approach Boris. So, Penny would be off her lead and instantly she'd scamper up to the dog, introduce herself and give the owner time to catch up with their pet by discussing whether Wagg or Beta was best. She didn't dislike anyone or anything, although her almighty ten-second howl, a noise you had to hear to believe, was like a burglar alarm in the way it warned people walking into the garden with innocent intentions - such as the window cleaner, particularly - made sure she was taken seriously. From behind that fence, the howl could have been any breed of vicious creature, not a dopey Basset with a tail like a walking stick and a penchant for rolling on her back.
Penny was nine years old, and would have reached double figures in September this year. Bassets are prone to illness in earlier life, unlike other breeds for whom not reaching the age of 11 or 12 is unusual, but she hadn't had a single unwell day up to the point when, just after Christmas, I noticed she seemed to have put on some weight.
A closer look determined that it wasn't the belly of a glutton, but it was a growing belly nonetheless, similar to how a pregnant animal would appear. She groaned and complained when the growth was pressed and so we knew that there was a problem.
The ultrasound at the start of the week revealed a tumour; today's exploratory operation revealed the extent of it. We'd been told it was most likely to be attached either to her spleen or her liver; the former was operable as dogs can survive without a spleen, the latter not so. As it turned out, neither was the case, but it was still a no-hoper for her, poor thing.
And then there were three. Plus the cats, of course. We buy into the knowledge that our pets will die before our eyes each time we bring one home, but that doesn't make it any easier when it happens, and the mawkish but clear truth is that it will happen several more times over the next few years, as the other dogs are eight, eight and six years old. Penny was our first Basset, the one that confirmed our interest and love for a terrific breed, and we will miss her forever and ever. The memories of her will never cloud. They never do when they represent someone who melted your heart every time you looked at her.
When we knew that the end could be near, we got the camera out and took a stack of photos. This is the last pic of Penny and I.
RIP my big girl Basset. I'll love you forever.
4 February 2010
2 February 2010
Who still uses a fax machine these days?
I'll tell you who does: football does. The transfer window closed yesterday with the usual range of partially interesting last-ditch deals, and each time the buying club has to fax the FA with the terms of the transaction.
It wouldn't surprise me if no other sector of society uses facsimile now. I fail to see why the FA insist on faxed contracts when one could easily be scanned, attached to an email and sent off in a far more reliable manner. Not to mention quicker. And better for the environment.
I haven't used a fax machine for probably ten years. They used to be quite good for radio stations as businesses often used to communicate this way. If you were unlucky, you'd get a loud 'beep beep beep' noise just as you opened the microphone, making it sound like an articulated lorry was backing into your studio. For a while "workday request"-type features were restricted to fax-only submissions, presumably so that the headed paper used by the company could establish their credentials as a business. And the first ever, er, "proposition" I got from a female listener was by fax*.
The news agency office where I worked in the mid 1990s used fax a lot, and many a morning would be spent uncluttering the machine after a forest's worth of useless press releases had been sent through overnight, eventually forcing the paper back into the machine and prompting a delicate removal process from whoever got in first. And every so often the fax machine would spit out its accounts, which would render the machine unusable for half an hour, in the same way that PCs are slowed down completely if the anti-virus software is doing its weekly cleanse.
The first time I ever heard of a fax machine was when reading an interview with 1980s breakfast television goddess (and she always will be) Kathy Tayler in about 1988. She was doing an "at home" type puffpiece with the TV Times and talked about her "fax machine spitting scripts and schedules at me all day". I didn't know what a fax machine was, but as Kathy Tayler had one, I wanted to know. For a good few years they were a sign of progress, upward mobility, just like the mobile phone that was bigger then than your laptop is now. Posh people and successful businesses had facsimile.
Telly embraced fax for a bit. There was an episode of Men Behaving Badly where Gary dumped Tony's girlfriend for him by fax. Del Trotter used a malfunctioning fax machine to see off longtime nemesis Roy Slater in an episode of Only Fools And Horses. Live debate and call-in shows eagerly touted their fax numbers.
I suspect a lot of offices may still have fax machines but absolutely never use them and can't often remember the number. Email has, surely, rendered the fax machine obsolete. Yet the FA relies on this outdated, clumsy method of communication to see business in their game is done properly. So it's not just the style of English football that's outmoded and in need of modernisation; it's the technology used by the authority that runs it, too.
*The answer is no.
1 February 2010
My beautiful big girl Basset has a tumour. We're waiting for an exploratory op later in the week, so we don't know if it's benign or not, or to which organ the blighter has attached itself, but right now we're clinging on to hope for her. She's only nine, for pity's sake...